Hey there! Happy new year to you all! Hoping you all had a wonderful Christmas and that your New Year has started well.
As I mentioned before, Christmas was a little different this year as it was just myself, Mr H and the two wee ones (who really aren’t that wee anymore). We had such a fun relaxing day including a Saffie walk, lots of games and not forgetting the insane amount of food! Boxing day and the rest of Christmas was spent with family and friends so we had a really good balance.
Although it was a wonderful time spent with my nearest and dearest, I really crashed and burned in between Christmas and new year. I sensed that ‘all too familiar’ feeling creeping up on me and although I am better at recognising it now and hope that ‘this time it’s not going to get me’, it did! It so did!! I felt like I had literally been knocked off my feet. I was so low one day that I could barely speak to my family and just ended up sleeping for part of the day (a way of switching off from the emotion), which makes me feel sad as they are all affected by the “D” word too.
I don’t know if it was the fact that I had been so busy before Christmas (as we all are) and then the ‘big’ day came and went and I stopped and it all caught up with me, or if it was the fear of working out what I was supposed to be doing next, which when I thought about it didn’t feel like it could be much as I felt utterly incapable of doing anything positive and then started questioning everything about myself!
If you have read my post From Depression to Destiny you will know how much I struggle at times. I can be feeling so on top of things one day and the next everything seems like an uphill struggle. You know what I mean?
I am pleased to say that even though I was still feeling very low New Year’s Eve and couldn’t imagine going anywhere, let alone celebrating, we decided very last minute that we would go to some lovely friends for a gathering – another part of my struggle is never wanting to commit to things in advance for fear of not feeling up to it when the time comes, something else I am working on.
It was the best thing we could have done, being with people who were ready to start the new year with new hope, new dreams and new vigour was wonderful and we even met some new friends.
Things have seemed so much brighter since then, I’m not suggesting that other people are the answer to the issues and circumstances of our lives but surrounding ourselves with people who bring out the best in us is always a good thing.
If you have been struggling over the Christmas period let me encourage you to keep pushing forward. When you look back over the last year make sure to focus on the positives, the things you have achieved, the small steps towards changing your life for the better and celebrate. Lets not focus on the negatives but be honest about how we feel, speaking truth to ourselves and believing that we are
‘not going to feel like this forever’
‘heading towards great things’
‘unique and have so much to offer others’
Here are a couple of quotes that I find helpful hope they are to you also
“Strive not to be a success but rather to be of value” Albert Einstein
“Life is 10% what happens to me and 90% how I react to it” Charles Swindoll
Lets start 2016 together with a new attitude that we can do far more than we give ourselves credit for!
LETS GO FOR IT!
I really hope you have found this helpful and I would, as ever, love to hear from you.
With love ❤️